I So very much miss my time with my daughter. I started working at a ski resort to help pay bills and so forth. As many people have to do to even try to make ends meet with today's economy. Well as many people can guess the christmas and new year holidays make ski resorts very busy. I was hired to work in the ski school program. As a person to run the front desk and help kids get ski rentals and so forth. Well I have worked everyday for the past 11 days. I ended up sick yesterday and had to call of work. (not my ideal day off of work) I could barely hold my daughter. I tried to keep my distance anyways cause I didn't want to make her sick. So now Since I had a "day off" from work I was asked to work tomorrow. I so desperately miss my daughter. I typically work 10 hour days. I am gone before she wakes up, and see her about half hour before she goes to bed. Working in the child care center/ski school reminds me of all the time I am not spending with my daughter. Today I didnt have anyone to watch her for me while my husband and I were at work, so she came to work with me and I had her put in the nursery. (Not my ideal situation either) Well the women I work with I trust, they did a wonderful job with her today. She did have a break down half way through the day. Remember she is only 5 months. I had to go sit and rock/nurse her for half hour and she finally calmed down. It broke my heart. I am just glad I was there to comfort her. She had a very long and big day. She zonked out early tonight. She is sleeping next to me right now. I think the experience was good for her. I just won't be doing it all the time. Becasue after she calmed down, I handed her back to one of the ladies who work the nursery part of the child care center. Of course she started to cry and reached for me...She has just started reaching for people she wants to go to. So as you can imagine, it tore at my heart even more. So I held her a little longer. She finally stayed with the ladies up stairs. When I went back up at the end of the day she had taken a long nap and then was sitting in her car seat talking (cooing) to Sharron who was doing the "dishes" SO it made me happy to see that she got beyond her break down. I asked Ana at the beginning of the day to speak spanish to her. Cause I would love for her to be bilingual. Which Ana didnt mind doing since it is her native language. Alexandria really seemed to like listening to her speak. Well I am glad for the hours, but I am glad we are through the busiest time of the season. The amount of days I work will be a lot less. Hopefully after the season is over I won't have to work anymore. Unless I want to. My husband and I decided it would be best in this economy for him to enlist. I will miss him greatly. But its a chance to be paid to travel. Not always to fun places, but still travel the country more. He will recieve a decent pay. and I will have the chance to go back to college. 6 years will pass by faster then I know. Its hard to think Alex will be 6 or 7 years by the time he would get out. Well I do believe I have babbled on and on long enough.
How is everyone else holding up?
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